naked & fearless

I am Legion for I am many.

2011-04-03T00:56:00.004+01:00

You might call me the Watchman, I'm just one in many. Nevertheless I've been charged with the task of observing and recording our history, it's of no importance who is the dominant one, I record and observe.
I have watched you all succeed and I have watched you all fail.
I have watched you all love and I have watched you all hate.
I have sat quietly and watched because that is the task that was bequeathed to me.
I have on occasion failed to only record and observe, because my love and respect for you has been overwhelming.
Unfortunately, I know that I cannot allow myself to stop once more, if I act in behalf of any of you one more time, my position as the one who watches will be taken from me, and I will never be able to look at the magnificence of all of you, my brothers, ever again.
So it is with a proud heart that I record the following...

Happy Madness!

Here's an advice.

2011-04-03T00:47:00.003+01:00

When faced with two choices like "YES/NO" or "should I STAY/should I GO", simply toss a coin.
I works not because it decides for you. It works because the moment you flip the coin into the air, in that smallest amount of time it takes to know what the result is, you suddenly know what result you are hoping for.

Head or Tail?

I like them both (and I've just turned this into a dirty joke)

Rorschach in Watchmen

2011-03-16T12:59:00.003Z

The cold, suffocating dark goes on forever, and we are alone. Live our lives, lacking anything better to do. Devise reason later. Born from oblivion; bear children, hell-bound as ourselves ; go into oblivion.
There is nothing else. Existence is random. Has no pattern save what we imagine after staring at it for too long. No meaning save what we choose to impose.
This rudderless world is not shaped by vague metaphysical forces. It is not God who kills the children. Not Fate that butchers them or Destiny that feeds them to the dogs.

It's us.

Only us.

by, Alan Moore

It's a shame we have to die my dear

2011-01-23T09:58:00.005Z

Love? Yeah, I've loved, and I guess I've been loved back. If you were to ask why I'm not sure if I've ever been loved back, I'd say that love is not a constant force. You meet someone really special and you fall in love, things are great at the beginning because of that, it's the beginning, the time of dreams and illusions.
One very good friend of mine, a friend of the female variety, says that the love of her life was a brasilian she met while in Erasmus because it was always perfect, I've told her time after time that it was perfect because it was short, it was strong and it ended before time caught up with them.
I've had that kind of fast love too, and I liked it so much when I had it that I found myself (maybe the object of my love was doing the same) getting into an endless cycle Breakup/Makeup. Well the endless cycle ended up being only two years long until I got fed up with it all and wanted more, there had to be more. I explained everything as best as I could at the time, she said she loved me with all heart but she ended up breaking up with me and guess what ... two weeks later, she was with another, she had found a new love. I guess that's the standard mourning period for some.
That time, even though I had the notion that what I had had was not true love it took me close to a year to fully get back to being myself again.
This happened all over again a few times more, but it was never even half as strong as before. They were different, circumstances were different, I was different.
But then I found love again, and I was not myself, I took the lead, I chanced it all, and why? Because I found it where I never thought it could have been possible. Those were very strange circumstances. Without all of my previous experiences I wouldn't have gone for her, I would have stepped back and let it slide, thinking from time to time of all that could have been.
But I went for IT, it was fast, it was strong, it was everything. And we enjoyed it so very much. Until something came up over the horizon, a deadline on love, at first I thought about what that other friend had and I thought it was great, and it was. Further down the line I realized that it was not as fast as before, but it had become something more, where I found myself wanting for her little flaws. Things weren't as perfect but were intrinsically ours, our little arguments, not that we'd breakup/makeup, but that we'd had begun to know each other past all superficial masks.
That was the point were things were at the lowest. Why? Because I was genuinely afraid of losing her, and I started to retract myself trying to prevent myself from feeling the pain that was to come. With her help I solved that problem too eventually...
Things were good after that, we still had our ups and downs, but we were in love.
Then I went and got drunk at a dinner party, and I went and kissed a girl I had never even thought of in any desirable way, and before I had the time and notion to know what was happening it had already happened. And that was that, as fast as it had happened she went out the door. In my drunken state I started to think I had done something awful, maybe I had been sending the wrong signs. Turns out that girl is just plain crazy and so am I.
Then I went and spoiled it all by telling you what had happened, you were hurt, you couldn't even begin to comprehend what I was trying to say and how it all happened. I tried to rationalize everything, if I were you I wouldn't understand either, hell I am myself and I still don't understand.
And that my friends is how you cheat without ever wanting or thinking about it, and end up being dumped by someone that you still love and loves you back.
It's been a month and I now I know the dreams I had; like I had before in the past, were a sign, maybe when people get as close as I got to you, they share some sort of intangible link; were all true. It's been a month and you already found and have been with a new love . I feel like, I don't even have the words to express how that makes me feel.
That was fast, but then again I guess maybe my mourning period is greater than what it should be, that and the fact that I had yet not lost hope. I just didn't want the feeling of cheating on you even though we are now very far apart, so I've said no a few times already, but now I know that I'm free to say yes.
I blame none other than myself for starting this chain of events, it hurts, yes it does, but I'll just end up rationalizing everything. We'll be good friends someday!

Which brings me to my initial question. Love?
Yeah, I've loved ...

This year, I will ...

2011-01-01T18:12:00.004Z

Look up at the sky, be true to myself and others, spread kindness, think about it, smell the roses, write a story, travel, be productive, give, give a hug everyday, make my bed, give up a bad habit, stand tall, find the time, touch my toes, throw a costume party, believe, be a leader, go camping, focus, trust my instincts, stay in touch, follow my own advice, let go, find live music, make money, be spontaneous, make a paper aeroplane, not dwell on the past, move on, be available, try a new café, calm down, backup my computer files regularly, do what I love, love, visit an art museum, leave a large tip, volunteer, tell her that I love her more often, write a love letter, improve, avoid drama, drink hot cocoa, cook for my friends, work smarter, sit around a camp fire, speak up, talk more, dance in public, jog, watch the sunrise, reconnect with an old friend, sing out of tune, use my phone to call instead of text, throw a party, see the good in people, solve Rubik's cube, become an expert on something, drink more water, take risks, try harder, plant a tree, be fearless, share the remote control, be a rock star, never give up, wake up earlier, listen to my heart, start acting my own age, inspire.

How many will I accomplish?

e são tantos os caminhos

2010-12-28T20:07:00.004Z

Frequentemente és o puto, muito raramente o cão, ocasionalmente o comboio...

Lemmy is the Chuck Norris of Rock \m/

2009-08-14T15:10:00.000+01:00

opá opá opá opá opá opá!

2009-08-13T23:36:00.000+01:00

isto sim é uma vergonha ... a minha voz :x

contas á vida!!!

2009-08-12T02:38:00.002+01:00

por vezes sou de impulsos mas com a idade vou-me controlando melhor ...

Porto -> Mértola + Mértola -> Porto = +/- 50€ e 15h no total dentro de um autocarro

alojamento mais barato que encontrei por Mértola? 40€ por noite --- 2 noites = 80€

prognósticos para a primeira noite? completamente esgotado e a adormecer cedo

prognosticos para a segunda noite? cauteloso pelo único autocarro de regresso ser ás 8h30

tempo efectivo por Mértola? 35h30m

Gastos? +/- 180€ com viagens, alojamento, comida e bebidas

...

Queria tanto neste momento que todos aqueles que me acusam de não ter juízo estivessem certos ...

fdx :x

2009-07-25T00:16:00.003+01:00

O verdadeiro desafio não é amar mil mulheres, o verdadeiro desafio é a amar a mesma Mulher de mil maneiras diferentes :\

e não é que ganhei?

2009-06-27T13:19:00.000+01:00

2009-06-22T22:32:00.002+01:00

1. put your itunes/ ipod/ mp3 player on shuffle.
2. for each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. you must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? Libido (Ornatos Violeta)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? Lateralus (Tool)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Metamorphosis (Sepultura)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Pretension/Repulsion (Manic Street Preachers)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Misirlou (Dick Dale And His Del-Tones)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Hysteric (Yeah Yeah Yeahs)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? Time Honoured Tradition (Kaiser Chiefs)

WHAT IS 2+2? Trial By Fire (Testament)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Crack Addict (Limp Bizkit)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Hells Bells (AC/DC)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Manhattan (kings of Leon)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? U got The Look (Prince)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Horseshoes And Handgrenades (Green Day)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? California Dreaming (Mamas and Papas)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? One Toke Over The Line (Brewer & Shipley)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Animal Fuck Like The Beast (W.A.S.P.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Down South Jukin' (Lynyrd Skynyrd)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Bustin' Surfboards (The Tornadoes)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? St. Vitus Dance (Bauhaus)

HOW WILL YOU DIE? The Beat Goes On (Sonny & Cher)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? I Can Do Without You (Kaiser Chiefs)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? The WASP (The Doors)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? Bird On A Wire (Leonard Cohen)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? The Mark Has Been Made (Nine Inch Nails)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? Sleepless (The Decemberists)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? Tremble For My Beloved (Collective Soul)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? I'm a Man (Spencer Davis Group)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW? Roadhouse Blues (The Doors)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS? Money For Nothing (Dire Straits)

2009-06-17T01:24:00.000+01:00

...e andar por casa nu também!

2009-06-14T13:12:00.000+01:00

... por vezes esqueço-me de como sabe bem dormir completamente nu ...

EPIC WIN \m/

2009-06-10T14:54:00.001+01:00

I've decided to only have meaningless sex from now on, it's a lot easier to have dirty amazing sex with someone when you don't care about the other person or what they think of you. I have been testing this theory close to a year now.

I like some meat on my bones ;)

2009-06-08T10:55:00.003+01:00

get to know me

2009-06-07T20:25:00.002+01:00

Basics
Full Name: Pedro Cachola
Single or Taken: single
Sex: anytime
Birthday: may 19
Sign: taurus
Siblings: older brother
Eye colour: brown
Shoe size: 45
Height: 1.82m
Country born: portugal
Innie or Outie: innie
What are you wearing right now: cargo pants and long sleeves
Righty or lefty: righty
Any pets: dog

Relationships
Who are your best friends: fred
Do you have a bf or gf?: not the moment
Best place to go for a date: beach
Longest relationship: year and a half
Shortest relationship: 2weeks
Outgoing or introverted?: introverted

Favorites
Favorite Number: 8
Boys Name: pedro
Girls Name: inês
Animal: polar bear
Drink: vodka
Sport: football
Fast-Food Place: mac
Month: may
Band: tool
Movie: Donnie Darko
Perfume: tommy
Favourite cartoon character: uzumaki naruto

Have You Ever
Given anyone a bath: no
Smoked: yes
Bungee Jumped: yes
Made yourself throw-up: yes
Gone skinny dipping: yes
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: no
Broken a bone: yes
Played truth or dare: yes
Been in a physical fight: yes
Been in a police car: no
Come close to dying: yes
Been in a sauna: yes
Been in a hot tub: yes
Fallen asleep in school: yes
Ran away: no
Broken someone's heart: yes
Cried when someone died: no
Flashed someone: yes
Cried in school: no
Fell off your chair: yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: yes
Saved MSN conversations: yes
Saved e-mails: yes
Made out with just a friend: yes
Used someone: yes
Been cheated on?: yes
Done something you regret?: yes

What is
Your good luck charm: a pin
Best song you ever heard: tool - pushit (live)
Stupidest thing you have ever done: said to someone special "you're dead to me"
What's your room like: like me
Last thing you said: fdx
What is beside you: comic book
What shampoo do you use: pantene
Something that has happened to you this year: quit my job
Worst thing that has happened to you this year: gor my heart broken

Have You Had
Chicken pox: yes
Sore Throat: yes
Broken nose: no
Tonsels removed: no
Ice cream in the morning: yes
To give the heimlich: yes

Would You
Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000: yes
Go to a Manson concert if you had a free ticket: yes
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with : athletic woman/best friend
Do you admire anyone?: lots of people
Who is the last person that called you: foz
Who was the last person you slow danced with: some blond :x
What makes you laugh the most: my imagination
What makes you smile: a smile

Do You
Do you wear contacts or glasses?: no
Do you like yourself: yes
Do you get along with your family: yes
Have piercings below the waist: no
Stolen anything over $30: no
Obsessive: no
Compulsive: yes
Anorexic: no
Bulimic: no
Suicidal: no

Misc
What are you listening to right now: king of leon
What makes you happy: my friends
What did you do yesterday: study
Got any awards: some
What car do you wish to have: smart
Do you want to get married: yes
Good dancer: no
Good Singer: yes lol
Have a lava lamp: no
How many remote controls are in your house: 8
Are you double jointed: no
What do you dream about: stuff
Last time you showered: hours ago
The last movie you saw at the theatres: star trek
Scary or happy movies: scary
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: mud
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Skiing or Boarding: boarding
Summer or winter: winter
Silver or Gold: silver
Diamond or pearl: diamond
Sunset or Sunrise: sunrise
Sprite or 7up: 7up
Orange juice or apple juice: apple
Cats or dogs: dogs
Coffee or tea: tea
Phone or in person: person
Oldest, middle, youngest or only child: youngest
Indoor or Outdoor: outdoor

Have You...
Dated outside your race?: yes
Given a hickey?: yes
Dated your good friend/best friend?: yes
Sung in the shower?: yes
Spit in someone's drink?: no
Dumped someone?: yes
Opened your Christmas presents early?: yes
Peed outside?: yes
Seen "The Goonies" more than 10 times?: no
Had more than five REAL bf/gf?: no
Played a computer game for more than 5 hours?: yes
Ran through the sprinklers naked?: no (i plan to)
Ate food that fell on the floor?: yes
Went outside naked?: yes
Made out with your best friends bf/gf?: no
Mooned somebody?: yes
Been on stage?: yes
Made someone cry?: yes
Been in a parade?: yes
Been in a school play?: no
Drank beer?: yes
Gotten detention?: no
Been on a plane?: yes
Been on a cruise?: no
Broken into a house?: yes
Gotten a tattoo?: no
Gotten piercings?: no
Cried so hard you threw up?: no
Gotten into a shouting match?: yes
Been skinny dipping?: yes
Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose?: yes
Laughed so hard it hurt?: yes
Tripped on your own feet?: yes
Cried yourself to sleep?: yes
Cried in public?: no
Thrown up in public?: yes
Lied to your parents?: yes
Skipped class?: yes
Slept in class?: yes

Fez sentido ainda à pouco...

2009-06-07T19:17:00.002+01:00

...And with dust in throat I crave
Only knowledge will I save
To the game you stay a slave...

...But I'll take my time anywhere
Free to speak my mind anywhere
And I'll redefine anywhere...

...I adapt to the unknown
Under wanderering stars I've grown
By myself but not alone
I ask no one...

...And my ties are severed clean
The less I have the more I gain
Off the beaten path I reign
Call me what you will... yeah you will...

in, Metallica - wherever I may roam

palminhas

2009-06-06T17:16:00.001+01:00

for those about to rock ... I salute you \m/

2009-06-03T07:02:00.005+01:00

- palco com 78 metros de comprimento por 21 de profundidade e uma "passerele" a ligá-lo a um segundo palco O_O
- duração esperada do concerto aproximadamente de 2h15 O_O

Alinhamento mais que provável:

Rock 'n' Roll Train
Hell Ain't a Bad Place to Be
Back in Black *_*
Big Jack
Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap *_*
Shot Down in Flames *_*
Thunderstruck *_*
Black Ice
The Jack
Hells Bells *_*
Shoot to Thrill *_*
Dog Eat Dog
War Machine *_*
Anything Goes
You Shook Me All Night Long *_*
T.N.T. *_*
Whole Lotta Rosie
Let There Be Rock *_*

ENCORE
Highway to Hell *_*
For Those About to Rock (We Salute You) *_*

Acreditem ou não, já estou acordado desde as 6h .... mais excitado que uma pita de 14 anos para ver os tokyo hotel

*feliz*

È a vida ...

2009-05-29T00:08:00.000+01:00

Dei-lhe oportunidades para ser interessante... FALHOU!
Dei-lhe oportunidades para avacalhar... Tambem FALHOU!
Não havia de funcionar de qualquer maneira lol

YES or NO

2009-05-28T15:34:00.002+01:00

Kissed any one of your close friends? --- yes
Been arrested? ---no
Kissed someone you didn't like? --- yes
Slept in until 5 PM? --- yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? --- yes
Held a snake? --- yes
Ran a red light? ---no (not yet)
Been suspended from school? --- no
Experienced love at first sight? --- no
Totaled your car in an accident? --- no (not yet)
Been fired from a job? --- no
Fired somebody? --- no
Sang karaoke? --- yes
Pointed a gun at someone? --- yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- no
Kissed in the rain? --- yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- yes
Seen someone die? --- yes
Played spin-the-bottle? --- yes
Sang in the shower? --- yes
Smoked a cigar? --- yes
Sat on a rooftop? --- yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- yes
Smuggled something into another country? --- no
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- yes
Broken a bone? --- yes
Skipped school? ---yes
Eaten a bug? --- yes
Sleepwalked? --- no
Walked a moonlit beach? --- yes
Rode a motorcycle? --- yes
Dumped someone? --- yes
Forgotten your anniversary? --- yes
Lied to avoid a ticket? --- yes
Ridden on a helicopter? --- yes
Blacked out from drinking? ---yes
Played a prank on someone? --- yes
Hit a home run? --- no
Felt like killing someone? --- yes
Cross-dressed? --- no
Been falling-down drunk? --- no
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? --- yes
Eaten snake? --- yes
Marched/Protested? --- no
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- no
Puked on amusement ride? --- no
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- no
Been in a band? --- no
Knitted? --- no
Been on TV? ---yes
Shot a gun? --- yes
Skinny-dipped? --- yes
Caused someone to need stitches? --- yes
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- yes
Had surgery? --- yes
Streaked? --- yes
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- yes
Passed out when not drinking? --- no
Peed on a bush? --- yes
Donated Blood? --- yes
Grabbed electric fence? --- no
Eaten alligator meat? --- yes
Eaten cheesecake? --- yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- no
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- no
Peed your pants in public? --- no
Snuck into a movie without paying? --- no
Written graffiti? --- no
Think about the future? --- yes
Been in handcuffs? --- yes
Believe in love? --- yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? --- no

Policia Ucraniana :)

2009-05-27T22:43:00.004+01:00

Se as policias portuguesas fossem assim eu dedicava-me a uma vida de crime!!!

A razão porque gosto novamente de ténis :) Simona Halep, Romena de 17aninhos e muita "saúde"!

2009-05-27T22:23:00.004+01:00

2009-05-27T00:06:00.003+01:00

Acabou de passar pela cabeça ... Quem terá sido a primeira pessoa a olhar para uma vaca e a pensar "acho que vou apertar estas coisas rosa e beber o que sair delas"? Como terá corrido isso?
Eu sei que vocês não pensam nestas coisas mas eu penso.

Eléctrico weee weeeee weeeeeeee weeeeeeee

2009-05-25T09:27:00.001+01:00

Quem me manda beber meio litro de café por volta das 6h depois de passar a noite em branco? Se calhar não foi grande ideia da minha parte...

I rise. I fall. I'm down, then I rise again.

2009-05-17T11:28:00.004+01:00

2009-05-16T20:45:00.004+01:00

2009-05-12T20:49:00.001+01:00

she spreads herself wide open to let the insects in
she leaves a trail of honey to show me where she's been
she has the blood of reptile just underneath her skin
seeds from a thousand others drip down from within

oh, my beautiful liar
oh, my precious whore
my disease, my infection
I am so impure

devils speak of the way in which she'll manifest
angels bleed from the tainted touch of my caress
need to contaminate, to alleviate this loneliness
I now know that the depths I reach are limitless

Nine Inch Nail - Reptile

A queimar lentamente.

2009-05-10T18:00:00.003+01:00

Primeira noite que meti os pés no queimodromo este ano e até nem foi mau de todo, foi bem divertido apesar de completamente diferente do que estava à espera.
É bom saber que continuo a ser uma besta adorável ...

Oficialmente Desempregado

2009-05-07T00:01:00.002+01:00

...

Oficialmente Ex-Militar

2009-05-07T00:00:00.000+01:00

o ultimo ano custou tanto a passar mas chegou ao fim *finalmente*

:)

a good enough man

2009-04-12T03:55:00.000+01:00

"Down these mean streets a man must go who is not himself mean, who is neither tarnished, nor afraid ... He is the hero, he is everything. He must be a complete man and a common man and yet an unusual man. He must be, to use a rather weathered phrase, a man of honor, by instinct, by inevitability, without a thought of it, and certainly without saying it. He must be the best man in his world and a good enough man for any world."

in The Simple Art of Murder, by Raymond Chandler

my moral standing is lying down

2009-04-08T11:59:00.006+01:00

"vou-te oferecer uma pá para os teus enterranços"

she shines in a world full of ugliness

2009-04-08T11:46:00.003+01:00

NIN @ PdC

Hey sister why you all alone?

2009-03-25T13:35:00.002Z

... eu só queria berrar a little sister este verão num festival qualquer ...

2009-03-19T12:41:00.003Z

"I'll splatter color on this gray ... waiting for the one ... the day that never comes ... love is a four letter word here in this prison ... I suffer this no longer ... this I swear ... the sun will shine"

Metallica - the day that never comes

E estas palavrinhas fizeram-me ficar triste, com saudades, arrependido de muita coisa e por fim sorridente. Quando o sol não brilha, brilho eu por ele :)

2009-03-09T23:01:00.005Z

I can only sing a song with honest lyrics because I refuse to end up sugar coating the words for anyone. When did someone as laid back as me realize he had something worth fighting for? Don't leave me is something I don't say... Would you have stayed here with me back then? I never lost you but I gave up the thought of you... It's not anyone's fault but I know there are things more important to me than becoming an adult. However I'll be growing up the hole time while I'm trying to figure out what they are. You say we can't stay like this forever? I know ... so let's walk, slowly, step by step. Never stopping for an obstacle be it a wall or a mountain.

"maduro, homem feito:)"

Coisas da vida

2009-02-28T15:35:00.000Z

Se no Inverno há dias de sol, no Verão também chove.

As 10 piores perguntas que uma namorada pode fazer

2009-02-24T21:16:00.002Z

01- O que é que se passa? (também conhecida como "estás bem?", eu até ficava bem porque não se passa nada se parasses de fazer essa pergunta de 5 em 5 minutos)

02- Que queres fazer hoje à noite? (se eu disser que quero pinar sem ter de sair e aturar os teus amigos idiotas ficas ofendida?)

03- Eles parecem tão felizes desde que se casaram, não parecem? (é o efeito lua de mel ... o efeito é o mesmo durante e após uns dias de ferias)

04- Isto fica-me bem? (esta aqui não tem solução, não interessa o que diga corre sempre mal, mais vale ficar calado e pagar-lhe a roupa)

05- O que é que fazias se eu morresse? (arranjava outra, provavelmente uma amiga tua e começava logo a mexer-me no funeral, fazer o papel de triste e coitado que precisa de mimo)

06- Gostavas de ter filhos? (gostava de praticar mais se fosse possível)

07- Achas que ela é atraente? (agora sou cego? claro que sim, senão não estava a olhar)

08- É isso que vais vestir? ( não gostas? AZAR ...)

09- Não te queres inscrever num ginásio? (fdx ... estou a ficar gordo ... e ela já tomou em conta o trabalho necessário para arranjar outro antes de me dizer isto)

10- Onde é que nos vês daqui a uns anos? (eu não te consigo decifrar de momento para momento como é que vou adivinhar o futuro?)

Pseudo Normal

2009-02-21T12:12:00.004Z

Não costumo fazer publicidade ao que leio porque não sou "pseudo intelectual", não tenho a mania que só gosto de literatura dificil nem sei o que isso é :p
Gosto tanto de ver os meus amigos a ter conversas idiotas nas que participo activamente e conversas mais serias com assuntos realmente relevantes em que fico caladinho e só falo mesmo quando não consigo respeitar outra opinião e quando digo respeitar se calhar quero dizer compreender, nem eu sei ás vezes...
Tudo isto para dizer que o ultimo livro que li foi o Livro dos Cinco Aneis do Miyamoto Musashi, o Miya como eu lhe chamo, até faz sentido, quem mia são os gatos, os gajos maus geralmente são gatos e ele minha gente foi uma pessoa muito má. Foi o melhor samurai de todos os tempos, não perdeu um unico duelo em toda a vida, e isto na altura em que perder era morrer, viajou como um mendigo á procura de oponentes de valor e quando não encontrou mais o que queria retirou-se para uma montanha para escrever... O homem passa a vida a lutar e chega ao fim e escreve poemas :)
Este Livro dos Cinco Aneis é uma compilação da sua obra inteira e nele se encontram os 21 principios para uma vida feliz segundo o Miya.

01. “Aceita as coisas como são.” (concordo)
02. “Não procures o prazer pelo prazer em si.” (concordo)
03. “Nunca, em qualquer circunstancia dependas de um sentimento parcial.” (concordo)
04. “Não te leves demasiado a sério, mas pensa profundamente sobre o mundo” (concordo)
05. “Sê desligado do desejo toda a tua vida” (concordo)
06. “Não te arrependas do que fizeste.” (não concordo)
07. “Nunca tenhas ciumes.” (não concordo)
08. “Nunca te deixes ficar triste por uma separação” (concordo)
09. “Vingança e atribuir culpa não são apropriados nem para ti nem para os outros” (concordo)
10. “Não te permitas ser guiado pelo sentimento de amor ou luxuria” (não concordo)
11. “Em tudo não tenhas preferencias” (concordo)
12. “Sê indiferente ao local onde vives” (concordo)
13. “Não ganhes gosto por boa cozinha” (não concordo)
14. “Não te agarres a algo que já não precisas” (concordo)
15. “Não sejas preconceituoso e evita seguir o pensamento de grupo” (concordo)
16. “Não coleciones armas ou pratiques com elas para além do que é util” (concordo)
17. “Não temas a Morte” (concordo)
18. “Não procures possuir bens materiais para quando fores velho" (concordo)
19. “Respeita os deuses sem contar a sua ajuda” (concordo)
20. “Podes abandonar o teu corpo mas deves sempre preservar o teu sentido de honra” (concordo)
21. “Nunca te desvies do Caminho” (não concordo)

PG Porn faz-me RBA

2009-02-18T18:14:00.005Z

PG PORN: Squeal Happy Whores | Girls | SPIKE.com

I'll fuck my own hand
It's all that I need
Pretend it's pussy
Angelina Jolie's
or Beyoncee's

"cala-te"

muitas e boas noites temos nós :p

2009-02-11T20:38:00.001Z

AMOR é ...

2009-02-11T18:44:00.000Z

... poder dar puns na cama.

You call me a dog, that's fair enough ... I'll call you beautiful if I call at all ...

2009-01-11T14:22:00.003Z

There are two dogs inside me. One of the dogs is mean and evil. The other dog is good. The mean dog fights the good dog all the time. I know that the one dog is like my dreams and good intentions. He is full of purpose. And order. He maybe represents my respect for others and respect for myself. Respect for what I can be if I put my heart into it. And the other dog… he has no respect for anything. He's like a crazy beast. Crazy and self-indulgent. He blames everyone else for his sickness. He lashes out at every opportunity. He loves nothing but wallowing in the hot darkness of his anger… Someone asks me which dog usually wins…. And then after a moment's reflection, I answer… I say, ‘The dog that wins is the one I feed the most.'

all we ever do is talk ... we like to run but we never walk

2009-01-10T13:15:00.001Z

Love is just a song today
When someone takes the song away
You'll seldom sing along
So take those lyrics serious and sing your life away
and carry on but don't write 'em down or they'll be gone

Sennin

2008-12-14T20:36:00.001Z

... time to feed the monster ... I don't need another friend ...

2008-11-24T17:13:00.000Z

Escolhe um artista/banda e responde às perguntas com os títulos das músicas.

TOOL

É homem ou mulher? Hooker With A Penis

Descreva-se. Demon Cleaner

O que as pessoas acham de si? Useful Idiot

Como descreveria seu último relacionamento amoroso? Intermission

Descreva sua actual relação. Hush

Onde queria estar agora? Swamp Song

O que pensa a respeito do amor? Opiate

Como é sua vida? Right In Two

O que pediria se pudesse ter apenas um desejo? Third Eye

Escreva uma frase sábia. "I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm/ To feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow/ To feel inspired/To fathom the power/ To witness the beauty/ To bathe in the fountain/ To swing on the spiral/ To swing on the spiral/ To swing on the spiral of our divinity & still be a human."

Agora despeça-se. Eulogy

I get it - Danko Jones "sleep is the enemy"

2008-11-03T18:53:00.002Z

"He bites his hand and doesn't stop thinking about you"
"Well you caught her in the act ... But you stood up cooled off and walked away despite your temper"
"She's not even worth the time but I think you know this and she can have all the boys that are on the checklist"
"You know that she wants you but you don't want her anymore. This is this is this is a sticky situation"
"If we don't stop put me in a coffin cause you and I have absolutely nothing in common"
"You used to be so special now I’m bored all the time, you think the same of me too, just say it
don’t be shy"
"I used to want you. Now I don’t want to"
"Everybody wants to fall in love… Not me!"
"All your friends got someone else they hang out with and now you want your someone else too, but to me it all seems that they breakup just to makeup"
"I´m not trying to tell ya what to do, just wanna pick you up 'cause you're down"
"As much as people wanna love ya, they'll always wanna try to bring you down"
"her looks kill more than a shotgun"
"She's drugs, she's drugs, you took a look and now you're hooked"
"She looks like an angel, but she's all sin"
"I want my my my my my my my my my drugs"
"First date, electricity, when you walk in, you suck my circuitry"
"Heyyyyyyyyyy, do you kiss on the first date? Cause I do"
"Now this is what we're gonna do on our date today, we're gonna do all the things the other couples like to do, we're gonna go to a movie, have some dinner, take a walk, look at the moonlight"
"Heyyyyyyyy, let's do it on the first date"
"I'll sell my soul just for you but nothing's good enough, I might be the longer road but I'll make it worth your while"
"I'm always moving and I ain't got the time to live it up but then I stay up all night"
"Make sure you're not easy to shock. You need a little bit but I got a lot"
"I like it tight when it feels right"
"I was born with the sun in my eyes, don't need the sunlight baby, I prefer night"
"Was now the last time 'til the end?"
"It's starting to wear me down little by little, feeling like a sick dog. Everything's gone wrong"
"If I only knew what was right I'd do it in a second to calm down"
"When day falls to night my heart always ends up on the ground"
"I've got these feelings, alive in my head, don't listen to reason, they only see red"
"I know I'm gonna live through this and when the wound on my back heals I'm coming to get you"
"Just look at me, I'm living proof, that time heals nothing"
"Until the bullet is logded in my skull I'll refuse rest and risk it all"
"Relax is not a word I understand It makes no sense to me"
"Sleep is the enemy"
"Fear's what needs to be put to sleep, out of reach and when you decide you got to do it and move it, you can feel it"
"I'm ready, I'll take on everything"

if I were

2008-10-31T14:27:00.001Z

If I were a month I would be: May
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday
If I were a time of day I would be: 4 am
If I were a planet I would be: Mars
If I were a sea animal I would be: a white shark
If I were a direction I would be: upwards
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a couch
If I were a sin I would be: Lust
If I were a historical figure I would be: I wouldn't I have no interest being someone else
If I were a liquid I would be: water
If I were a tree I would be: Oak
If I were a flower/plant I would be: Black Lotus
If were a kind of weather I would be: rain on a hot sunny summer day
If I were a musical instrument I would be: drum set
If I were an animal I would be: Polar Bear
If I were a color I would be: green
If I were a vegetable I would be: carrot
If I were a sound I would be: silence
If I were an element I would be: earth
If I were a car I would be: Audi Q7
If I were a song I would be: Today? Tool - Lateralus
If I were a movie I would be directed by: Guillermo Del Toro
If I were a book I would be written by: Frank Miller
If I were a food I would be: a delicious chocolate cookie
If I were a place I would be: somewhere at the top of a mountain
If I were a material I would be: Steel
If I were a taste I would be: bitter-sweet
If I were a scent I would be: Wet grass
If I were a word I would be: metamorphosis
If I were an object I would be: a scabbard
If I were a body part I would be: lips
If I were a facial expression I would be: calm
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Green Lantern
If I were a shape I would be a: a perfect circle
If I were a number I would be: 8

2008-10-30T03:17:00.005Z

Ah, pretending to be happy is nothing but a sad distraction. I rush in and give you my silent warning, a gentle squeeze of your shoulder, and as I glance at the path I've endured companionless my face is overwhelmed with your familiar aroma, and as it fills me I collapse out of sight landing softly. My legs are weary and fleeting memories run through my head. I see your profile and hear the same words over and over. Like the girl who asked me "Isn't life so sad when all you do is survive?". Careless, young and helpless.
Now having witness sadness we should have never allowed and crying tears that should have remained dry we may not be tough enough as to live on survival alone.
One single finger brushes against my skin, I don't want to believe our romance was a mistake. We've got a bad, bad habit of saying "everything's fine!" and bottling it up. I always thought about how I wanted to be with you forever, but we don't see eye to eye. I assumed I could always make you smile, in that soft gentle way of yours. I want to hold you ...
I thought I loved you and wanted to hear your voice more and more, and while my hand still reaches yours, you never reached back.

ARE YOU SUFFERING FROM FEELINGS?

2008-09-26T00:46:00.000+01:00

What Are Feelings?

Feelings are a tender emotional state that develop when a male becomes fixated on a single female to the exclusion of others. Even others with bigger boobs.

Early Warning Signs

When you’re around one particular chick, you experience:

•Pounding Heart
•Dry Mouth
•Nausea
•Inability to speak
•Sweating
•Desire to say flattering things

If undiagnosed, these warning signs can quickly develop into the full blown disease…

Symptoms

•Warm fluttery feelings in stomach
•Lightheadedness
•An unexplained urge to watch Love Actually
•Sudden increase in cuddling occurrences
•Brunch cravings
•Explosive monogamy
•Happiness
•Failure to notice other hot women
•Crosswording

Transmission

Though correlation remains scientifically inconclusive, studies indicate “hand holding” may play a role in spreading Feelings from one person to another.

Treatment

At this time the only treatment for Feelings is a multi-week course in Other Women. If symptoms persist, repeat course at a higher dosage. NOTE: This treatment can result in harmful side-effects such as rash, infection, and in some cases, pregnancy.

“Together we can end Feelings”

yeahhh you _ shook me all night long

2008-09-19T18:53:00.000+01:00

The not so Holy Trinity

2008-09-14T13:42:00.003+01:00

Blue - you guys are fighting a lot lately
Green - yeah, it's weird. that's not usually my stile
Red - bickering's bad for everyone, it's not worth it for a fling. maybe you should call things off
Blue - that's not how I see it. your personal life is none of my business. if I'm out of line here...
Green - no, please. go ahead
Blue - okay. you ever think that you're fighting so much because the relationship is meaningful?
Green - not really following you
Red - because he's not making sense
Blue - c'mon. you were the same. love them and leave them with never a second thought...
Red - until I met her. yeah. maybe you got a point. I never really argued with a woman before I fell in love with one. If one was possessive or even just a little cranky, I just moved on.
Green - and you're saying that's me
Red - this souldn't come as a surprise
Green - Huh
Red - doesn't sound wrong, does it?
Blue - you know, I once had a huge fight about the dishes
Green - really?
Blue - the thing is, the dishes weren't the problem. they were just something safe to fight about. we couldn't begin to solve things until we started talking about what was really on our minds.
Red - if you have real feelings you should tell her
Green - it took some time but I've admitted to myself that I have, and I've told her ... but we're kind of stuck in reverse
Blue - ...
Red - when you find the right person, you don't play games. You go get them, period

2008-09-14T13:10:00.002+01:00

"If you must choose between several paths, all of wich will bring defeat, then choose the path wherein you lose fighting with honor."

Ban Gu

Gonna paint my life green

2008-09-08T23:58:00.001+01:00

Splashing through the sand bar
Talking by the campfire
It's the simple things in life, like when and where
We didn't have no internet
But man I never will forget
The way the moonlight shined upon her hair

And we were trying different things
We were smoking funny things
Making love out by the lake to our favorite song
Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow
Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long

Catching Walleye from the dock
Watching the waves roll off the rocks
She'll forever hold a spot inside my soul
We'd blister in the sun
We couldn't wait for night to come
To hit that sand and play some rock and roll

2008-08-31T19:40:00.004+01:00

Nowadays I pay no attention to cheap wisdom. Biggest mistakes I ever made were brought on by dwelling to much on that same wisdom, instead of listening to my own heart. Tiranny of reasonable voices that's what it really is.

Mistakes I make can always be worked out. The mistakes I don't make because I do nothing, because I don't try, I don't take that extra step and risk it, those are the ones that end up haunting me later on. Regret that's the real killer.

I've been going where my heart leads me. Life'll take care of the rest ... It always does...

So True ...

2008-08-28T21:47:00.000+01:00

Hellboy: [drunk] She's still mad at me, you know. And it's not about the mess, either, it's about something else.
Abe Sapien: [also drunk] Well, why don't you just ask her?
Hellboy: No! Because when a woman's mad at you, but she's really mad about something else, and you have to ask, she gets mad because you had to ask in the first place! You know?
Abe Sapien: Uh-uh...

silent voices in my head months ago

2008-08-16T22:17:00.004+01:00

Her - I'll tell you about it someday...
Him - Meaning we'll be seeing more of each other?
Her - It's a possibility. What are your thoughts on that?
Him - Part of me wants to open every door to you.
Her - And the other part?
Him - Cares enough for you to keep them closed.
Her - I'm no stranger to tragedy.
Him - But I'm driven by it
Her - I can't be in a relationship with a man more passionate about his demons than he is about me.
The one time I sparked the most passion from you was back when I betrayed your trust.
Him - I was angry.
Her - It was an honest emotion, maybe the most honest you've ever given me. If we are to have
anything more, and i think we could and can ... It has to come from a love that's just as
honest. I don't know if you can give me that right now...
Him - I don't know if I can, I only know that I'm trying... Can you forgive me?
Her - I always have...

... this was months ago ...
... nowadays it happens like this ...

2008-08-16T14:56:00.003+01:00

I feel the change consume me
I feel the metamorphosis and cleansing
I've endured within my shadow
change has come
now is my time.
listening to my muscle memory.
contemplating what I had been clinging to
and who I used to be before it all

I choose to live and to grow,
learn and love and to cry,
to do what it takes to move through
to step through

Did you see my shadow changing,
stretching up and over me, softening this old armor?

I walked through my shadow and came out the other side
and you were just ahead of me

2008-08-12T18:54:00.003+01:00

"Ser invencivel depende apenas de mim proprio, derrotar o inimigo depende apenas dos erros cometidos pelo inimigo."

Sun Tzu, A arte de guerra

... espero que isto te ajude a compreender o meu discurso, porque fazer guerra e fazer amor são demasiado parecidos ...

2008-08-12T14:25:00.002+01:00

I've watched the same drama unfold so many times
today kind of... feels like I'm watching it again
the instant you started smiling
was when our story began
but I know the days will still
be full of uncertainty and apprehension
so open your eyes
and replace your loneliness with something more
found my lost bravery and I hold it up high for everyone to see
I remember all the tears we've had to endure
let's join hands, and a new story will unfold
let's fly together and never come back down
I wanna fill the cold void of outter space
with the warmth of my love
burnning like a million stars just for you
so spread your wings and take flight with me

another mindless rant in my tent
during Franz Ferdinand's concert @ Sw 08

2008-08-06T00:56:00.002+01:00

Apesar de U2 ser a banda favorita daqueles que não gostam de musica têm umas pérolas muito interessantes.

" And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on"

Walk on, by U2

e para mim fez todo o sentido :x

salmão fumado

2008-08-04T17:12:00.000+01:00

where once was a boy/lover
now is a warrior/friend
doesn't pretend to be an angel or demon
he is both and he is full of JOI
with is own code of honor/unique trend
he will lie not to hurt others
he will cheat to get ahead
he will steal just to take her his bed

she makes him have those cold night sweats
he treats her good
and all she delivers are knife threats
late at night he returns to his tent
in that green dark hood
paying is poker debts is his intent

she whispers "i'm an easy lover,
like me there's no other"
he gets his chance
his way is wide open
yet his promesses are not meant to be broken

so he lies, he cheats and he steals
and she rarely really reveals
much to his shame
that for him still exists a flame

he talks her to sleep
and lies awake thinking how he acts like a little sheep
afraid to hurt her, to lose her
he never really allows himself to go deep

then he remembers that over thinking
and over analising
separates the body from the mind
leaving oportunities behind.
silently he thanks is teacher for those wise words

he was a polar bear dreaming he was a sheep
he rose
he roared

I WILL ... I AM ...
I WILL ... I AM ...
I WILL ... I AM ...

last afternoon @ PdC 08, under the influence of drugs and alcohol

lol :x

2008-07-28T09:40:00.002+01:00

A situação no Paredes de Coura é uma perfeita metáfora para a minha vida sentimental... Eu de joelhos, com o ANANÁS na cabeça, bem no centro e cortam-me da fotografia...

like a bat out of Hell

2008-07-28T09:13:00.002+01:00

Am I the one you deserve or the one you need?, Must be the one you deserve cause you never seemed to need me.
So you hurt me, use me, abuse me, thrill me, kiss me and kill me, I don't like it but I can take it ... and I can take it only so far until I snap...

I'm a dark knight and I always give as good as I get.

you are like a hurricane ...

2008-07-19T04:21:00.004+01:00

Once I thought I saw you in a crowded hazy bar,
Dancing on the light from star to star.
Far across the moonbeam I know thats who you are,
I saw your brown eyes turning once to fire.

You are like a hurricane
Theres calm in your eye.
And Im gettin blown away
To somewhere safer where the feeling stays.
I want to love you but Im getting blown away.

I am just a dreamer, but you are just a dream,
You could have been anyone to me.
Before that moment you touched my lips
That perfect feeling when time just slips
Away between us on our foggy trip.

You are just a dreamer, and I am just a dream.
You could have been anyone to me.
Before that moment you touched my lips
That perfect feeling when time just slips
Away between us on our foggy trip.

You are like a hurricane
Theres calm in your eye.
And Im gettin blown away
To somewhere safer where the feeling stays.
I want to love you but Im getting blown away.

2008-07-15T01:06:00.003+01:00

What do you do when it's not enough?
When you've used up all your cleverness, utilized every resource and it doesn't even come close to being enough, and you're left to stand there helplessly and rage against the limits of your own ingenuity.
There's no worse feeling in the world. None.

The thing is, when you're faced with a total sense of hopelessness, you just have to fight through it.
Come up with new angles, new ideas.
Do everything, do anything you can.
Sometime's it's just a matter of taking a leap of faith ... and being there when people need you.

Maybe in the end, what makes me into ME is that I'm just to stupid to quit and as a result, even in the face of total defeat, I ocasionally luck into a win.

Resposta a "Zelia"

2008-07-14T00:28:00.002+01:00

Gostava de t responder mas n tenho capacidades para ixo. Ja disse k gosto de ti. Mas n kero k fikes eternamente ah minha espera.
Sim, tenho ciumes de ti e n devia ter esse sentimento de posse mas tenho e n passa facilmente.
Estou a caminhar para uma vida em k estou sozinha e n t kero arrastar cmg. E preciso da minha liberdade. Gosto de ti...

Zélia

2008-07-13T16:49:00.004+01:00

Amo-te. Sou estúpido. És idiota. Temos sinais trocados. E ambos adoramos liberdade. Mas sinto mesmo muito a tua falta na minha vida...

Can I Play With Madness?

2008-07-09T01:18:00.002+01:00

@ SBSR Lisboa & Optimus Alive

2008-07-06T21:35:00.002+01:00

A ponte ou o individuo atrás da lente, quem sou eu?

... é tudo uma questão de perspectiva ...

2008-07-06T11:56:00.002+01:00

Gosto de pormenores...
Gosto de coincidências...
Gosto de pôr as coisas em causa...
Gosto de não gostar de ver futebol...
Gosto de beijar na boca...
Gosto do absurdo
Não gosto que não me olhem nos olhos
Gosto mais do conteúdo do que da forma
Gosto que nem toda a gente goste de mim
Gosto de sentir a adrenalina a disparar
Gosto que me surpreendam
Gosto de adjectivos
Gosto de adormecer por cansaço
Não gosto que me façam esperar
Gosto de observar o comportamento não verbal
Gosto de rir até chorar
Gosto do toque de alguém especial
Gosto de exagerar
Não gosto que me tomem como "garantido"
Gosto do cheiro a relva molhada
Não gosto de cerveja
Gosto de falar com "o meu cão" ao telefone
Gosto de orgasmos mentais
Gosto que me abracem
Gosto de ironizar...
Gosto de usar do sarcasmo...
Detesto dualidade de critérios.

Hou to tell the diference between a FRIEND and a friend

2008-07-03T01:41:00.004+01:00

A FRIEND may be in the hospital, a few hours after going through surgery and still remember that you were in an accident last week and will be concerned about you and will want to know every little detail.
A FRIEND is worth keeping cause FRIENDS care and worry about each other above all else.

A friend will see you once or twice a month, won't remember and won't care. A friend will be nice to you while acting like you have a very contagious/terminal ilness. A friend will actually tell you not to go away and end up leaving you .
A friend is not worth keeping cause it doesn't matter how much they tell you they care and worry about you and stuff, when their actions speak otherwise.

O Acidentado

2008-06-25T18:36:00.005+01:00

sorriso

2008-06-24T20:26:00.000+01:00

I've been drinking wine ... from the serpent's vine ... havin' a colossal good time!

You want me to tell you a story?
Come meet me and I'll tell you the story about the joker and the thief in the night and you won't be going home *XIS DÊ*

2008-06-20T00:34:00.003+01:00

" ... and the shadow of the day will embrace the world in gray ... and the sun will set for you ..."

2008-06-16T00:29:00.004+01:00

Everything is so fragile.
There's so much conflict, so much pain...
You keep waiting for the dust to settle and then you realize this is it: dust is your life going on.
If happy comes along, that weird, unbearable delight that's actual happy...
I think you have to grab it while you can.
You take what you can get.
Cause it's here, and then...
Gone!

...

2008-05-30T12:55:00.007+01:00

28/05/2008 por volta das 18h29/05/2008 por volta das 9h

29/05/2008 por volta das 18h

Capitão Romance

2008-05-26T23:26:00.007+01:00

"Por querer mais do que a vida, sou a sombra de quem sou e ao fim não toquei em nada do que em mim tocou. Eu vi mas não agarrei!"

"Páro p'ra sentir e dar sentido à viagem, a sentir que eu sou capaz. Se o meu peito diz "Coragem!" Volto a partir em paz."

2008-05-03T14:55:00.008+01:00

I had a dream last night, a strange one that is, not one of those wet dreams that leave you wanting for more nor one of those nightmares that make inconfortable enough not to fall asleep so soon after you wake up....

I was preparing to go on vacations with all my friends, we were going to JAPAN, we got on the plain, it was one of those low cost flights so we weren´t landing in Japan where we wanted but we would be close enough to catch a train or bus.

As it was a long flight we had a lay over somewhere (it was a dream I'm already being to specific about it). There in that unknown place I lost the flight but my friends didn't, so they all went to Japan, of course being as stuborn as I am i decided I was still going. I went over the boards looking for flights leaving for Tokio ... I had money and there was one leaving soon. My mind was made up, I was GOING.

When I finally reached Tokyo I managed to displace my cellphone ... Diferent country, diferent language, friends but no way to reach them ... I was all on my own and for the time that I was there I was loving it ... being lost in the crowd ... having fun wherever I went ...

Still the thought of my friends being worried about me made me feel guilty I guess ... I had a general idea where they were staying, I went there and as I took a corner I saw them across the street, they were all smiles and it seemed they had no worries, I managed to hide myself from them entering a store and diddn't leave it until they left.
If they were having so much fun all together and I was having all that much fun all alone that's how it was going to be ... So I left the store and kept on walking never looking back ... I was having the time of my life.

The end.

Helder Barros 29-07-1984 ... 20-03-2007

2008-03-20T11:31:00.003Z

... hoje bebo para ti ...

SAUDADES TUAS AMIGO

2008-03-01T17:52:00.002Z

bound by wild desire .. I fell into a ring of fire ... I went down down ... and the flames went higher ...

My life ... My rules ...

2008-01-26T17:45:00.002Z

One of my teachers once told me, after seeing me take down two opponents, that I had a taste for violence. I think it was meant to be a compliment, but there was a warning involved as well. All I know is, it stung like hell at the time. Still does. Because, yes, I can fight. And yes, I'm good at it. But the hurting, i never enjoyed that part... well rarelly.
If you're gifted in a terrible discipline then every time you face someone, you face them with the knowledge that you could break their bones. Displace their arms in their sockets. Blind Them. Cripple them. Kill them if necessary.
No matter how loving a life you choose to live that's always there, the worm in the apple. Shake hands with a new person, take note of their nerve clusters and pressure points. Go out with friends, knowing how easily you could knock them all senseless. Make love to a woman you'd give your life for, seeing her so exposed, so vulnerable.
You cant compartimentalize a lifetime of learning where to place your fist, just because you might be in polite company.

"The problem with owning a sword ... sooner or later, you'll want to unsheathe it and try the blade."

2007-12-14T17:51:00.002Z

Which Heroes Character Are You?
	You are Sylar. You are very aggressive. You like to pick fights and play mind games. You've got it coming.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

2007-12-14T17:41:00.004Z

Which Heroes character are you?

Your Result: Peter Petrelli

You are Peter Petrelli.
You have the awesome ability to use other people's powers. Most people wouldn't pay any particular attention to you, but you have always known that you were meant for things greater than what you currently have.

Which Heroes character are you?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I wish ... then again ... I don't ...

2007-12-09T16:37:00.001Z

Isn't it funny how everything works out? Well... I guess the joke's on me :p

2007-12-04T02:15:00.002Z

"... and it feels like we're living in that split-second
of a car crash
and time is slowing down
and if we only had a little more time
then this time
is all we have
do you remember the time we
and all the times we
and should have
and were going to
i know
and i know you remember
how we could justify it all
and we knew better
in our hearts we knew better
and we told ourselves it didn't matter
and we chose to continue
and none of that matters anymore
in the hour of our twilight
and soon it will be all said and done
and we will all be back together as one...

... and i guess i just wanted to tell you
as the lights start to fade
that you are the reason
that i am not afraid
and i guess i just wanted to mention
as the heavens will fall
we will be together soon if we
will be anything at all

shame on us
doomed from the start
may god have mercy
on our dirty little hearts
shame on us
for all we have done
and all we ever were
just zeros and ones"

Zero-Sum by NiN

Happy Birthday To ME, ME, ME, ME \o/

2007-11-27T19:43:00.003Z

Two years ago this song made all the sense in the world to me ...

Two years have gone by ... still between the gutter and the stars ... but without a doubt way up above the clouds ...

para alguem especial...

2007-11-26T02:19:00.002Z

John Constantine - Hellblazer #227 Feb07

2007-11-10T23:03:00.002Z

Anjos, Demónios, Apocalipse, John Constantine e a Selecção Portuguesa de Futebol.

E ainda se perguntam porque gosto de comics?

.|.

with a little help from my friends

2007-11-10T21:03:00.002Z

I was walking the lines ... The synchronicity lines ... Where coincidence speaks to you with the voice of God ... I didn't know where I was going, but I knew it was somewhere that mattered ... And it is nice to be able to drop in on so many old friends along the way ... Still going ... Still walking ...

No more pins in me! NO MORE!

2007-10-25T20:34:00.002+01:00

Dolls of Voodoo,
All stuck with pins
One for each of us and our sins
So you lay us in a line
Push your pins, they make us humble
Only you can tell if in time
Will we fall, or mearly stumble.

Can you fix the broken worlds within
Can you strip away so we may start again
Or cut this rope and let us run
When all seems fine and I'm pain free
Jab another pin
Jab another pin in me

Mirror, mirror upon the wall
Break the spell or become the doll
See you sharpening the pins
So the holes will remind us
We're just toys in the hands of another
And in time the needles turn from shine to rust

Blood for face, Sweat for dirt
Three X's for the stone
To break this curse a ritual is due
I believe I'm not alone
Shell of shotgun, pint of Gin
Numb us up to shield the pins
Renew our faith which way we can
To fall in love with life again
To fall in love with life again
To fall in love with life again
To fall in love, to fall in love,
To fall in love with life again

Can you fix the broken worlds within
Can you strip away so we may start again
Or cut this rope and let us run
Just when all seems fine and I'm pain free
Jab another pin
Jab another pin in me
No more pins in me
No more, No more pins in me
No more, No more pins in me
No more, No more, No more, no, no, no!

Metallica - Fixxxer

... and I'm feeling good

2007-10-20T15:13:00.003+01:00

"Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
yeah, freedom is mine
And you know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me...
yeah, ooh
Oh, ooh...
Oooh, ooh..free, free loving you...
Oooh, oooh
Feeling good"

Muse - FeelingGood

Por muitas noites "longas" que tenha, vale sempre a pena acordar bem cedo e ver o céu assim pintado...

2007-10-08T01:58:00.002+01:00

I can hear the light. I don't know how that's possible, but I do. Each sphere of color radiating music, tones, textures, melodies that seem to vibrate out from the heart of the universe, across the heavens, and into my own heart, until I'm not sure where the music ends and I begin.

How did I get here, so high above the world, so deep within myself? And how did I ever live in that other world? How did I ever endure the brutality and ugliness? The ignorance? The unbearable limitations?

Here I'm free. Beyond the body, beyond the mind, free to become light and music, to transcend limitations. No fear here. No pain, anger, guilt or shame here. Just he chance to expand wider and wider until the veil between self and other, one and many, simply ceases to be.

Yes come closer to me, let your light permeate my body and sink down into the deeps of my soul.

JÄGERMEISTER

2007-10-06T17:46:00.003+01:00

*procura-se companhia para beber*

2007-10-04T01:48:00.002+01:00

*o Grunge só vai morrer quando NÓS morrermos*

sharing a tribal connection

2007-09-30T15:36:00.002+01:00

On intersection of all dimensions
where I was stoppin' by just for a drink
I meet a brother from tribal connection
and together we began to sing
we're gonna turn frustration into inspiration
whatever demons are there, we're gonna set them free
such is the method of tribal conection
of our fun loving restless breed
I wanna walk this Earth like it is mine
And so is everyone in our funlovin' tribe
C'mon man, is that real so much to ask
from all these goddamn nazi-fuedals
I'm gonna take it to community
Cause I want everyone to see
There never was any conspiracy
And we are all here simple to sing.

time to feed the monster

2007-09-30T11:11:00.002+01:00

Ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with? You know it's wrong. You know it's bad. But you'd walk barefoot across a mile of broken glass to get to them, and when they're there there's a calmness ... the eye of the storm.

And then ... "shit happens" as some would say.

Strange Comforts

2007-09-24T22:47:00.002+01:00

It's been a month for strange comforts so far, standing in the eye of some endless storm of emotions with my past windswept behind me and the future shuttering under every gust of wind but I've known my center for a while now, a place where I go to be alone. A place where, for the briefest of moments, the breeze is calm and the coming evening cools the world.
I feel utterly alone but somehow I can't help but smile back at the world.